Sugar, Science, and everything in between.

Life, The universe and everything is the title of a book, and the subject of many many others. Our job as human beings is NOT to comtemplate what we're supposed to do on this earth or to contemplate what others have done or will do or what we think they should do. Yet, what does sociaty, and yes, even the mighty Erin, spend most of their time doing? Just that. Wasting precious time wondering if time is precious. We wonder what if, or if we should, or what the celebraties are doing or what our best friend is doing and why. WHO CARES?!?!?! Nobody. Sadly, the topics we spend the majority of our time is taken up with irrelavent things. I'm really on a do-it-now-cause-you-might-not-have-a-chance-later, kicks. A complement unspoken is a blessing wasted. How true. If you like someones shirt, tell them! It does no one any good to simply think, "that color looks great on her". If you feel the desire to give someone a hug, PLEASE hug them! They might really need it. If not, it always makes people feel better. I'm so sick of finding out, to late, that my original intuitions are correct. I mean to change the world, one person at a time. If I can go around and speak mind when I want to, or compliment the stranger in front of me at the mall, then I can change the world. do you know how many people I came in contact with today? Hundreds. If I had spoken to even half of them today, I could have brightened at least 150 people's days. 150 people a day is 54,750 people a year. If I start now and live even 70 more years, that's 3, 832,500 people I could have touched in my life. That's alot. And if even half of those people, in feeling better, touch only two of their friends, that's twice that amout right there. You thought I was thinking to high in trying to change the world, didn't you? Well, with those odds, I can come pretty close. And guess what? I'm starting with you. If it now your job to carry the message to your friends and family. Keeping compliments and thoughts to yourself is greedy, rude and wasted. Don't be wasteful. It's not good.

Anyways, I'll get off my soapbox. Time to settle down, Erin.

Wow, did you hear about that earthquake? Crazy. Sound like aything to you?? yep... That's exactly what I was thinking. End of the world is comming!!! AHH!
I'm not a freak.....
OK! I LIED! Fine! Geez... what do you want of me anyway? Truth? The truth would scare you. Trust me, you don't want truth.
I love being out of school, but there is no Karate this week, and that sucks! I can't stand it. I'm going crazy not working out. It's funny how your body gets used to something, then when It's not there, it yearns for it. WOW.... sounds like I have a addiction! I DON"T need a support group, so stop thinking it laura. And Susannah, I am NOT dependant. I can stop ANYTIME I want to!....... I just don't want to....

I'm going biking tomorrow.. should be around ten miles. It's gonna be great. There's only one problem, when we bike we have to travel on the main road for about mile and 1/2 to get back on the moutain. The last time I went biking, these crazy rednecks kept driving by and honking at me and my friend. Finally, we got off the main road and back onto the dirt, but that was really annoying. I hate guys... They're so immature.
Lol, Like I have any room to talk, but oh well.

The truth is, excuses are lame...

Yeah... that's in an RK song. Just felt like saying it cause I've been making a lot of them lately. I won't even apoligize because I'll start making excuses again. I have a new favorite song. "Never Alone" by Barlow Girls. I thought I'd post the lirics here so that you can understnad when I start talking about it later.

Never Alone

I waited for you today
But you did show, no no
I needed you today
So where did you go?
You told me to call
Said you'd be there
and though I haven't seen you
Are you still there?

(Chorus)
I cry out with no reply
and I can't feel you by my side
so I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

And though I cannot see you
and I can't explain why
Such a deep, deep reasurance
You've placed in my life
we cannot separate
You're part of me
and thought You're invisable
I trust the unseen

I cry out with no reply
and I can't feel you by my side
so, I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

We cannot separate
Cause You're part of me
and thought You're invisable I
Trust the Unseen


That song is just the perfect descirption of how I feel right now. Like, I can't feel or hear God, but I know, I have to believe, that He is out there somewhere just watching me for a while. I also somehow give me peace and understanding. I've been struggling with relationships for a while, and to know now what I'm supposed to do is such a relief. I used to think that I would be married right out of college and I would have a little baby boy within the first two years and I would stay at home while my perfect little husband went to work and when he got home I would have his slippers ready and a hot meal on the table. Apparently, that's not where God has called me to be. I doubt, now, whether I will ever even get married, let alone never need a full time job. Wow... I never thought this is where my life was going. I see now, that everything has been leading up to the Marines and to a life of singleness, but it still surprizes me how different my planes were from Gods. I think He did that on purpose, that trickster! But you know what?? I'm ok with it all. I am now, anyway. It used to make me really upset and lonely to think that I might not ever be married, but know I understand. I don't know why it's this way, but I understand that that is the direction that I'm supposed to go in. Wow.. God is awsome!! He really really is!
I've changed so much. Part of it is the change of plans... I guess I've changed just enough to prepare me for the task ahead. You know, I used to be scared of spiders and snakes?? Not anymore... I used to not even want to look at slugs and things like that.. this summer I was picking leeches off of kids (and myself) without thinking about it. Incredible... and I'm not sure if it has just come with age, or God has been giving me expriances that are going to help me in the future. Probably both. Well... I hope all of you are as sure about the Mariens as I am... I would hate to leave my friends still in doubt about the path that I have chosen. All I want is prayer and lots of letters!! I need at least one letter a day! I don't care who it's from, but boot camp will go by so much faster if I can look forward to mail call. I've been told that letter from home have been the only thing that kept recruits going though The Crucible. so I'm counting on you to sustain me! Start writing letters now to send me later! that would be awsome! MAybe I'll write a few letter to myself. I could do that too!
I love you guys!! TTYL! Bubbye!

Wow

That last post was really long and really weird.... I'm so sorry!! I'm hungry too... I think I'll go eat

Omg, like, hey!

Hey ya'll! Becky and everyone else, don't even think about that last post.. I keep saying thing that I don't intend to say.. it's really not that big of a deal and I'm really sorry that I'm complaining so much. Gosh... I'm really bad at being inconspicuous. I'm really bad at a lot of stuff... grr! Like keeping my big fat obnoxuious mouth shut! RRRRR! That really annoys me that I'm annoying everbody else. And I'm not even going to teell you what I'm talking about becasue that's what I'm working on right now. Keeping stuff to MYSELF! Gosh that's so frusterating!

OK!! Happy thoughts, happy thoughts, happy thoughts!

I am so hyper... but really tired. in the last, like, 4 hours, I've had two and 1/2 Red Bulls and half of Chris' Dr. Pepper. That'a lot of Caffiene! Wow..... I can't even handle Skittles well. lol.

OK! I have all these songs in my head that I can't get out! mostly christmas songs! I think that's half of what's making me so dad-gum happy!

I'm mad. No I'm not I just felt like saying it. It makes me feel important.
Susannah! I love that CD!!!!! thank you sosososososososo much!!!!!!!!!!!
Not that you're ever on to read this... and you NEVER update your blog! NEVER NEVER NEVER!!!!

I threw a snowball today. Well, more than one.... more like 60. no not quite that much... about 20.. maybe more... I really don't know. But it was fun. Really fun. I haven't done that in a long long time. And Justin got slush alllllllll up my shirt! That was reallllly cold. hehehehe!

I like smirfs... they are such cute perky people! I wanna be a smirf. Jared says that they're too liberal and don't know how to have a good war every now and then. And I guess he's a little right, I mean, how do they keep their economy balanced without a war every so often?? Oh well, I guess that the secret of economic sucsess is hidden in the depths of the forest in the trees and kept by little blue dudes in white hats. Scary... what is this world coming to!

I'm drinking Jucy-Juice! The mango stuff. It's good but not as good as the Tropical kind. That's my favorite. Does anyone else drink juice as much as me?? probably not casue all I drink is water and juice.... and LOTS of milk! I LOOOOOOVE milk.... Chocolate milk, strawberry milk, normal milk, mocha milk, milk milk milk! I loooove milk! And yet I am still very small boned! How does that work! I thought milk made bones grow?? I'll ask Dr. Clark.

Hats are scary. really. Things that are made to cover your head and obstruct the veiwing of your eyes. I think only bad people should wear hats so then we could know who they were. I guess that wouldn't work huh? Hats are still scary.

I'm writing a fake report on a celebraty. But I'm not going to tell you who.. you'll laugh... I was just bored one day so I starting collecting data and writing an in epth report. Yeah, I know.... whatever.

Ewww...... That was gross...

Emily is looking at me... it's kinda creepy....

Hey! Guess what?? we got a stereo in our car now!! A CD player!!!!! I'm so excited!! I love it! WEEEEEEEE!!!!!!

I get my restricted liscense in two weeks!!! I'm happy about that too!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And a happy new year!!!! Wohoo!

Wow.... I think I just need to leave so I can't say anything else random! Bubbye!!!!!!!!!!!! and may the joy of the Lord follow you wherever you go like a rain cloud on those cartoons.. but in a good way... not a bad one..

ok so..... goodbye!

Goodness Gracious and Cheeze Whiz

That last post was problably the whiniest thing I have ever written! Omg, I am so embarrassed!. Please just forget that you ever saw it. I would erase it if you guys hadn't already commented about it. I am fine! My knee will heal and I need to just shut up about things! Goodness!

OK! So, who's up for a really BAD joke???

One day, this huge black Penguin had car trouble.

HAHA!! Penguins don't drive!! HAHAHAHA!

ok... that was really bad... but I bet that you at least smiled at the stupidity. lol... ok I have nothing of substence to say. Not that I say anything of substence anyway. Oh well,....
I have a problem... (Why do these things always happen to me?!) I have two friends (wow!) and they hate each other. I mean really hate. And both of them talk to me about the other.. And I tell them not to, but it always happens anyway. When one of them plans something, they ask that the other not be invited. Now, I can't exclude both of these people from the other because they have a lot of the same friends and want to hang out at the same places... It won't work. But I'll also make both of them mad if I refuse to be sympathetic to their concerns. I have a feeling like I'm going to lose one friendship or the other... It's like they're asking me to choose... And I can't do that! I just can't! I love both of them! O my.......

AND! omg..... We have been selling ornaments to fund our mission trip, as well as some jars of cookie mix... Last night at play practise, Some one stole all the money that was in the box on the table of stuff! They put the box in the back of the toilet in the ladies room and took allll our money!!! About 50 dolars! We're so upset! I had to be someone from the church, because the door were locked. It just surprizes me that anyone would literally steal from orphans! That's what it was for... to help get stuff for the boys in Honduras. I just can't believe it... It seem like everything that we try to do screws up and ends up hurting us. We bought enough supplys to make 1200 ornaments... we've sold about 100... and it's almost christmas. We made about 30 dollars over what the materials cost... all this work... for thirty meesly dollars... and fifty of it got stolen... I'm really about to cry.... I wanted this so bad... but I can't go unless I have the money... and I don't have the money....
And my kne problem is pretty much gone.. I'm happy about that... but now I have three pinched nerves in my left foot.... look gross and hurts like crazy. It got stepped on at a weird angle and now I can't feel my toes... at all. I just got to where I can move them again. Last night I could move them at all.

I'm so sad... all the peope that I'm closest with at my marine functions are leaving in january... Robby, Aaron, Rachel, Susan, and Casey.... I'm gonna miss them all! Especially Rachel... we're like, twins... it's crazy. and I saw them for the last time saturday... and Robby is really scared... I tolfd him not to be but he won't listen... imagin that...

It snowing! Wow...

I don't like peas... I like green beans.. but I don't like peas... weird huh?

oh! never mind!

Yo ho ho and a bottle of rum!

I ahev a bruise... on my knee. Nothing important. I am almost upset. I get hurt so often, wheneber I'm like "mom, my knee hurts" she says "you're knee always hurts" and goes on with her merry little life. It's like everyone is desensatized to my pain. DO I NOT MATTER!?!?! Oh I know.. Shut up. but I am a bit perplexed. when taylor's like, "my stomach hurts" m0m goes insane and brings him drinks and tells him that he's getting sick and should stay home. I NEVER get to stay home! no fair. OK I'll be quiet about it now... I just had to get it out.
I'm making a 'B' in history. I just know it! I can't stand that!!!m AHHHHHH! I have NEVER made a B! have I already told you this? W/e. It's not important to anyone anyways.

Yada yada yada

I know that that last post was weird and I'm sorry. I humbly apologize for being strange. I guess it comes naturally, but not for most people. Today is beginning and tomorrow is waiting and I need to go do some school. That's my profound statment for today. I had an epiphany today. it wasn't really but it makes me sound important so that's what we'll call it. I've decided that I am my own person and I can do, say, think, and wear what I darn well please as long as it meets God's standards. If I want to wear suspenders, fine. I will. If I want to say "cookies" in place of a bad word. Great. My choice. If I want to giggle like a girl, I CAN DO THAT TOO! I am not butch and I don't have to pretend to be. It's ok if I cry... ALL marines cry sometimes. I can dress preppy if I want to. What's the harm in that? I can also wear pajamas to Karate if I want! I can I can I can!!!! and the sad part? I just figured that out. I know.. weird. I have finally learned to go "the heck with it all" and dress and act the way I cookie well please! lolololol!!! AN dit makes me happy!!!! I'm so excited! wow... how liberating.

NO MORE CHRISTMAS SHOPPING EVER AGAIN!!!!! sorry, I'm just really upset that I am broke. After I had all that money.... and now... it's gone! I hope Amber likes her gifts... I really spent too much on her and I can say that here because she never visits blogs! so no one tell! Wellp.... I need to go it's late and I need sleep. I actually have to think in the morning.
Bubbyeness and Coolness for the remainder of your day.

Dad- Matt called for James

That was what it said. And I stared at it, like a 90-year-old Conservitive Southern Baptist lady stares at a hairy biker in leather. It disgusts me. I have stared at that note for the last two months. It annoys me... it looks at me and makes me wonder if it's not alive. It gives me a sinking feeling like it know's exactly what is going to happen and I don't. I hate that. staring at the same things everyday can drive you crazy...

I'm hungery. Very. But I'm too lazy to get up and do something about it. Wow. The epidimy of laziness is when you starve yourself because you don't want to get up.
I'm even too lazy to write this post. Goodnight.

whadya call a butcher's dance? A meatball!!!

Um...... Hola. And I DO NOT have green stuff in my teeth!!!!! (I was sure you wanted to know that)
I love you too Susannah!!! and I WILL be at the craft day fri... tomorrow...wow.
I'm drinking coffee.. and...well, n/m that's gross.

Sunlight is pretty,
Bunnies are cute,
My sock when down,
In the laundry chute.

that was terrible. sorry... I'll work on more poetry someday... just not today.
I'm sitting at the computer right now.... with headphones on.... am I listening to music? no... radio program? no... just silence. I really don't know why I don't just take them off... I guess I'm lazy.
I have this thing.. down at the bottom of my screen... it says "Post as 'Erine' - Post as 'Anonymous'" PLEASE tell me that if I posted as Anonymous that you would know who I was..?
What is the piont of that?? It's YOUR blog.. everyone knows it's YOU... how stupid. People just like options.
Brb



I'm back. Not that you would have known I was gone neway... MUHAA!!!!!! Am I gone now? Am I gone now?

Well, you're WRONG! I wasn't gone either time! HAHAHA! Fooled you!

I need sleep.... but I also really want to DO SOMETHIGN besides school... it feels like I never get out nemore except that I'm out all the time... I don't know how that works. I go to school, piano and Karate... that's it... and bible study, and church, and all those STUPID CHRISTMAS PARTIES THAT ARE BEING PLANED EVERYWEEKEND OF MY DECEMBER! ok sorry. It's not like I don't like christmas parties, but you can only go to so many before you burn out. I'm burnned out and I haven't been to ONE yet. I have a Missionettes party, a Sunday School party, a piano recital party, a women's shopping trip, a yaya sister thing, and a poolie meeting!! not to mention all that 'family' stuff I get dragged into! I CAN"T TAKE IT!!!!!! I love christmas but it really stresses me out! not only that but i'm like, out of money... and I'm not egzagerating... or however you spell it. Whatever.. I need to go.. I'm tired just thinking about it!